I’m just wondering where my friends are. Seems like they all got married or boyfriends. I wonder if I did this to my friends when I got a boyfriend. Why do we have to want boyfriends. Why does there have to be this tension. I hate it. I hate that my friends leave me. I hate it. I want to live and relate and be with my friends. But they’re too busy living and relating and being with their mates. I have some grace for that.. I know what it’s like to be in love.. but.. I wish I had friends again..
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I find this post ironic, because you never want to hang out with me anymore. just a minute—let me wipe this tear off the keyboard—but anyways. hang out with me sometime damn it all to hell and damnation!!!
are you talking about me at all?
surely there is a better way! i mean, after awhile, you get used to the love bit and can handle both.. but….. that whole reorganizing of priorities can sometimes end tragically.